7:30pm, and I'm sitting alone whith my thoughts t Kings Billiards. I came early so I could play a couple of games before my friends arrive. I'm glad I did because it's given me the chance to get this down without everyone wondering what I'm doing.Today i spent my time with my mother, and though we did nothing in particular, I was happy to be able to be with her. We Went to se Grandma, she cried when we left. Looking at her today, I thought of Nanny, and I know she's smiling down on me.I've made my farewells with so many people and it still feels strange to me. everyone thought that I'd be the one to stay put and here I am, off on this, "adventure," as my Mom has put it.The fact is that roots do run deep, I know that I'll never forgetwho I am, where I come from, and I trust that my heart will always know the way home.Some poeple see me without seeing me at all, and I think for along time I was one of those people, as it seems that somewhere along the way I forgot to take a look at the big picture.So what have I found out since I left my parents house 9 years ago?Well I found out how quickly I can change a diaper and ended up changing way to many. I have found out just how far some people bend to make other people happy, often forgetting along the way that sometimes you have to make yourself happy; a concept that I have tried to grsp this last year. I've learned that no matter how bent my family may be, that it's part of our quirky maritime charm. (Hey you try living with all this fog and see if you're not a little foggy in the end.)I've learned that being there for others can be rewarding on it's it own, and as hard as it is sometimes, it is often harder to let others be there for you.I've made soem truly wonderful friends, and have done soemthings that I never would have seen myself doing (like singing for a bar full of people). I've also learned recently that people can change, when a guy that I went to school with, who often treated me cruelly, apologized for said behavior.Dave is right(don't tell him I said so), I make bonds not friendships, and it's alright for me to lean on someone from time to time, I don't have to be strong all the time.Always remeber: 1- the trials of life are meant to make you better not bitter. 2-If you are going to laugh, laugh with all you have; It's good for you. 3- If you are going to sing, sing for the joy of it and with your heart. 4- Tell people you care for them before they're gone, and 5- Always try to leave the cue ball on the table, though having it sail across the room maybe fun, someone could get hurt. (Hey, I didn't hit anyone, that was Dave!)I'll miss you all, and we'll keep in touch.Love ya's.

Songs Say Alot

This Song is sung by Carrie Underwood and I really enjoy it so I thought I would share it... Enjoy. "Don't Forget To Remember Me" 18 years have come and goneFor momma they flew byBut for me they drug on and onWe were loading up that ChevyBoth tryin' not to cryMomma kept on talkingPutting off good-byeThen she took my hand and said'Baby don't forget Before you hit the highwayYou better stop for gasThere's a 50 in the ashtrayIn case you run short on cashHere's a map and here's a BibleIf you ever lose your way Just one more thing before you leaveDon't forget to remember me' This downtown apartment sure makes me miss homeAnd those bills there on the counterKeep telling me I'm on my ownAnd just like every Sunday I called momma up last nightAnd even when it's not, I tell her everything's alrightBefore we hung up I said'Hey momma, don't forget to tell my baby sister I'll see her in the fallAnd tell mee-ma that I miss herYeah, I should give her a callAnd make sure you tell Daddy that I'm still his little girlYeah, I still feel like I'm where I'm supposed to beDon't forget to remember me' Tonight I find myself kneeling by the bed to prayI haven't done this in a whileSo I don't know what to say but'Lord I feel so small sometimes in this big ol' placeYeah, I know there are more important things, butBut don't forget to remember meBut don't forget to remember me'

Enough of the Rain already

Alright, I know I shouldn't be complaining about the rain...I actually love the rain...and I know I'll probably be praying for it on the really hot days in Alberta..but come on..haven't we had enough dumped on us to last a little bit?
Brian was just here, he was kind enough to mail off the two remaining parcels I had ready to be shipped off...Big Thanks to him.
Now all that is left is for angie to bring my winter stuff over so that it can be stored until I need it sent to me... I have come to the conclusion that being a pack rat is hereditary and carried predominately in the women of this family. Trust me on this one..was going through the few remaining things with Angie and Jessica yesterday, Angie passed me some things to go through, most of which I tossed happily away..but there was an envelope that I smiled and handed back to her...I was unable to get the chance to do what I had wanted to with it, but told her what it was and smiled as I gave it to her. I have to say she was quite surprised as well because she didn't know that I had it... You see in June of 2002 Brittany had her first hair cut at the apartment we were living in..(don't worry it was from a certified hair dresser)...Anyway...I had grabbed some of the clippings and put them in the envelope with the intent of eventually getting a little silver box to put it in for Angie to save...Anyway, Angie has it now and another happy memory made..Just another day in the life of me.

Good Morning

Well here we are another day already, it is currently 1:06am, and while most sane people are alredy tucked into the warmth and security of their beds, like the fool I am here I am sitting in front of the computer pounding out a few brief words to say hi, and let ya'll know what I'm up to.
Went to see the new Superman movie, it was good and I am glad that I got to go see it...The plan for tonight(Thursday) is that I am to go play pool as I usually do. It will most likely be an early night.... The true gentlemen that he is, Dave brought me over here to Mom and Dad's and even carried the heavy suitcase up the stairs for me...He isn't coming tommorow night which is kind of a bummer..but he needs his rest and I understand that. Burton is supposed to come play..I hope he does..I have to remember to see if Chuck is gonna come and get us though..if not I will figure something out.....
The girls are really not happy with right now as I am over hear at Mom and Dad's and really the only way they are going to see me again before I leave is if their mom brings them over to see me..two of them are sleeping in my "old" bed tonight.... They were crying when I left....
Anyway..I hear the couching beckoning me to go try to sleep..Take care all, I promise I will continue to keep up with my Blog...Later.

4 days 'til Friday, then I'm out!

Well the count down is on, my flight is Saturday at 7:15am...am I getting anxious?... A bit..I just wish I felt better right now...headaches...stupid weather...

Anyway...The girls enjoyed their class trips today, and now they are all gone for the night, Britt, has gone to her Dad's, Chelsea has goen to her grandmother's(Rose's) and Chantal has gone to a friends house...I know Britt isn't coming home until Wednesday, not sure about the other two, I am glad to have a bit of peace but I kinda wish they were home too.

I have a couple of boxes ready to send out and a couple of more that i have to get done.... Oh well soon it will be time to go...I ran into Aunt Diane and Uncle Benny Saturday and asked if they could bring me and they siad yes...so BIG shout out to them...

another Rainy day

A friend of Pat and I sent me a couple of pictures today that were taken a couple of years ago when Pat attended his wedding in Ontario..I thought what better way to brighten my rainy day then by sharing them with you. Enjoy!

I'm Having One of THOSE Days

Just a few lines ot let everyone know that I'm still kicking...Had a whole day out with friends yesterday, it was nice to be able to eb out with them like that..though the psychic fair was a bust...and it only took us about an hour to pick out a movie at Movie Gallery that two of us had already seen, but enjoyed again anyway, then it was on to Trivia Night, we didn't do bad and I managed to answer one of the beer questions, the question was what singer who did a duet with Willie Nelson (don't remember the name of the song), the year he died?....IF any of you all want to hinder a guess I will answer this in my next entery.Anyway..gonna jet...Take care everyone.

Tofu

What can I say, Coffee flavored, Tofu fudgecicle thingys..yum.
Beautiful Day and I decided to soak up some sun...Let's face it I was starting to glow...
Anyway, tlaked to Pat this morning for a few, he cleaned my room today....
By the way, Happy Father's Day Dad....
Anyone see anything wrong with staying up until 4am if you can't sleep? Isn't it better than just staring at the ceiling all hours of the night? Just Curious.
I love some of these picture that I've been able to find....
I really don't want to go home..Blah..
Oh well..hopefully this week will go well...
I am really hoping it will...
Or at the very least no problems with the kids and Angie gets a babysitter for Wednesday.

hi

Well going home tommorow..note my enthusiasm....
I know that things will work out...as I told Pat..if I have to walk..I'll be there...
I know this is short..but night all..I will get on once again as soons as I can.

Freaking Out

Alright why am I freaking out you might ask...Well here it is..My friends were supposed to take me to Halifax so I could catch my flight and now, because of circumstances out of their control, they cannot drive me...I understand why they can't but damn!
I want to scream...I'm not going to scream though..it won't solve anything and will just give those around me a headache and I don't want to do that...
I know things will worl out..I have faith that they will..But damn why does it seem that just when things get all worked out and I can finally start to relax a bit I have to deal with more crap?
Alright enough of that I'm doen ranting for now..Sorry all.

Relaxing!

Well right now I am out in Spring Haven, I'll be back in town tommorow and I really don't want to go....It's nice and quiet out here, I'm realaxing, and just trying to enjoy this beautiful day. Wouldn't it be nice if the weather would actually stay this nice for awhile?
So anyway..right now things are quiet as I am the only one here....So I'm thinking about what all I have to get done before I leave, the songs to sing on Wednesday night for the finals of the competition, and who Angie can get to babysit on Wednesday...seeing how it looks like part of my plans for Thursday have become messed up which means Angie is going to have to get someone earlier in the day than anticipated because I ma supposed to go to a fair on wednesday now instead of Thursday with my friends..*sighs*.
So that is the 411 for now...take care all, more soon I promise.

Nothing New

Hey All, Well Wednesday Night went fairly well, Nagie is going to have to get somebody to watch the girls this Wednesday night as it is the finals for the competition, and there is no way that I am going to miss it.
Had fun Thursday night, played pool, got hyper, sang with the band, went for coffe and got home around 4:30 in the morning..
Good time had by all!*S*

A beautiful day and I am Blah

Well I just can't seem to get things together today, I did go out last night, charlene had asked me which was the main reason I had gone..I was singign a song that Ihadn't tried before and was doing a good job, but then this guy came over to talk with Sue(karaokee lady) and leaned down tot he table, when he did he hit the power button. Well they got it booted up and I had to start all over again, that is when they started messing with the sound board...*sighs* I ended up sounding like I was singing in a tin can....
I just really wasn't into it last night to boot so it really didn't help me any...Hopefully I will be able to get my self in a better place before I go to the competition tonight.....who knows..anyway take care all and I'll talk to you later!

Right now this would feel good!

Hey all, well a surprisingly beautiful day here in beautiful Yarmouth. I have been so busy the last two days getting things shipped off to Alberta and gettign a few things that I needed to get.
In the last two days I managed to send off 5 parcels...hard to believe that I'm almost done...
Anyway....Had a talk with one of the girls today about me leaving she was telling me how she didn't want me to go....The talk went well...
Patrick's birthday is today..and eh liked the gift I sent him, at least according to the e-mail he sent from me....
Tonight I am heading over to the Red Knight for awhile..at least that is the plan.. I want to get in a few songs before thesemi-finals tommorow..
Take Care all more Later....

Mom wanted to Cry!

Well Saturday went very well and thank you everyone for making it a great day despite the rain. I know that mom wanted to cry*S*, but she didn't which is good because if she had of then I would of...so Mom..thanks for not crying.

Hard to believe we managed to get 4 generations under one roof...who would think there were that many of us*L*?

Today I mailed off a couple of BIG parcels! Which is great because I really needed to.

Al;right I am being beckoned more later.

Just Another Day!

Hey all well as usual this is just another day in the life of me...I am here at Mom's, today is Dad's birthday (53), get to see everyone later, which is great because I want to before I move..The official flight day is July the first. I am very happy about that..it is three weeks away. Pat's birthday is in 3 days(29) I sent up his birthday present the other day so he will have it in time, it's a deck of tarot cards, it's the dragon deck they are awesome. A friend of mine bestowed a going away gift to me which I really like and will use. She got me a deck of faerie wisdom cards and I really like them.
The semi-finals of the singing competition are
this week. They really should just go right to the finals seeing as there are only three of us who have qualified and that is after they extended the preliminaries by a week. However they may be allowing another singer in just so we have 4 people, she was one night shy of meeting the qualifications so...I want to go up to camp before I move with a couple of my friends, even if it is only for a few hours.....
Anyway..Have a good day all, this rain can't last forever!

Yarmouth Shows it's true colors

well this purple and blue Lobster was caught right here off of Yarmouth..A sure sign that it takes all kinds.I did get to go see the movie..it was awesome*S*...went to the competition after..am still doing well...Thursday night with the band was good..Angie will have to get a babysitter this Thursday 'cause I plan on going out.The good news is I get my plane ticket this week.. The date of the flight is July the 1st for sure...So yay*S*Yes I am very happy..which is really good for me....Stress of packking aside..the fear of flying aside..it's all good.